Oh, hello there! It’s a pleasure.
I want to take you back to a time of my life, that as I am currently sat at the garden dining table looking around my surroundings, I am thinking about.
I want to take you to a part of my life where I was so caught up in others opinions, I never focused on my own life and all the while I thought things were good and I was “doing me”, things were going down hill- whilst I sit behind my steering wheel allowing this to happen.
Looking back now, with a very level head. A head that knows right from wrong and a head that can judge a situation prior to being completely wrapped up in it I look at things different now and I am at the point I can laugh at it all. Had a little giggle to myself and crack on as per usual. This is a magnificent moment. I am currently in that moment.
What has bought me these recent thoughts is recently I have been watching a few old Vlogging videos in which I did many years ago (8 years ago) which is a bloody long time. Admittedly it doesn’t feel like 8 years, that’s what makes it more crazy. But these videos had me in stitches, but also I felt sick at how I was and the message I was portraying. The messages I was putting across, always have and always will- is about being you and to “Believe in You”. But looking back to these videos, I know now that that moment in time wasn’t my happiest time, it may have been a happy time, a time where I was content and far away from how I currently was. That is what makes it more crazy. To remember the exact moment in which you did something, and being glad you are not there anymore.
Myself and my friends mainly talk about time, and how even being 16 years old feels like so long ago. Being the 23 year old that I am now. That was so long ago now. Long enough to look back at see all the stuff that has changed, the position you were in and the position you are currently in.
We all go through bad times, but eventually we get out of them and we get to the very empowering time of looking back, laughing and reflecting on how you are right at that moment. If anything, it feels like being a different person , but instead you are just the same you, but at a different stage in life.
I have attached the link to a video that I did 6 years ago. “I promise you it does get better! PINKY PROMISE”. A video that I am very fond and happy to look back on.
Thank you for your time, and just remember that what you are going through or your current situation, you can always get out of it. Stand for you, like yourself, get to the point of loving yourself and do anything you want. You’re allowed. The world is your Oyster card – that card is already topped up, use it.
Love, T X